Today, I found out that the guard that I've placed high up against my heart, was no longer there. Somehow over the weeks, it seemed to have been tearing down bit by bit while I wasn't taking note. And unconsciously, I'm allowing myself to be prone to being hurt by people, again. Being hurt meant that I'd be vulnerable and weak. I've allowed myself to be weak once, which was why I guarded myself up so much in order to prevent myself from falling into that state again. However, by being guarded up, I'll be losing the people that I should be holding close to. Through the years of guarding my heart, I've learnt that being vulnerable does not equate to being weak. I can still be vulnerable yet strong emotionally as well. Now, I'll aim to be emotionally strong, with my guard completely down.
This could make, or break me. I hope I made the right choice.
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