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How and where do I start this?

This is not something that is joyful, nor is it depressing. It is heartbreaking. Taking the famous quote from Schuller, “Tough times don’t last, tough people do”, I am hopeful that it will apply to you, me – us.

You love reading this small space of mine. You love my writings because you said it is another part of me that you do not get to see. And I am writing this to and for you.

From the very beginning, I had this feeling that one day I will lose you, no matter how amazing this love is between you and I. I thought that I was overthinking and I was just afraid to love so I brushed it off. Aha, who would have knew? Coming to terms with the fact took some time. It was not easy. To break your heart and mine honestly hurt like a bitch but things got to end someday.

The healing process will definitely take a massive amount of time because after all, you are my other half. The other half that I have never thought of losing in the first place but circumstances will have to pull us apart.

Being with you is a total bliss. Everyone close to me knows my temper and even I myself know how ridiculous I can be most of the time. You have a heart of gold. One that I do not deserve but I was selfish to give it up. You say I am your best but I am positive you just have not met the right one for you, yet. When the time comes, you will understand that I was not your best. You will see that our love is nothing compared to what you will get when you meet her.

Just be patient, love. All good things are worth the wait. When one door closes, another opens. We will get through this difficult time, and you will be strong for me, for us. Let the happy memories that we have created together in our duration of this relationship to stay in your subconscious mind and erase away the unhappy times. I am undeniably grateful for you and your unconditional love for me throughout the year spent together but I am sorry, for not being to be the one to spend the rest of your life with together. Please believe me when I say that it was once my dream.

God place both you and I in each other’s lives for a good reason. I am thankful for having you, having someone that showed me that it is possible to receive such unconditional love. Please do not give up in love. I trust that God has a plan for all of us and I know you do, too.

When the tears dries up, when the heart starts to heal, when you and I move on with a new partner, I will still continue to love you in a way or another, and I will watch you be the brightest star in your partner’s sky, shining as ever brightly as you can be. I will always love you.