05:09

I'm writing this when my head is in a whirl of mess. I'm not sure how and where do I start, but all I know is that I'm in the car, on the way to Penang, Malaysia, to head back to my grandma's place and I have a family photo shoot in two days' time and I also got a cousin's wedding to attend to this weekend. It's a long journey, it's 2AM, I just watched Perks of Being A Wallflower. The movie got me emotional, I guess. And it made me to want to write about something, something about myself I guess.

About a week ago, a friend borrowed me a book, it's called Perks of Being A Wallflower. The book is based on tons of letters. Then I thought to myself, "Hey, maybe I could do this too you know?" Write a 'letter' at the end of the day. So one day when I get bored, I can scroll back and refresh a little on the past. We can only remember this much amount of stuff and no matter how we don't wish for it to, at some point of time we'll eventually forget the little things that we wished we didn't. That's why I want to pen them down then someday, I'll come back here and read about the stuff that I've forgot about. 

What I'm hoping very much is that I'll be able to take some time out every night to write a little something here but judging on how lazy I am, I think I won't be able to last long in this. 

So, how shall I begin on what I want to say today... 

Does anyone believe in 'The One'? Like really like the ones in books, movies and tv series, whatever you name it. Because I actually do. It may sound really ridiculous to some people but I really quite believe that there's a better half for each and everyone out there. And if you ever wonder if I have met my 'The One', I'd actually say yes, I think I met mine. But no, I don't have a fairy tale ending to mine. I've actually met this person quite a long time ago but you know the phrase 'right place, wrong timing'? Yeah, that's what happened. 

I wouldn't go into details of what happened because it's not worth mentioning it anymore. What I do know is that I have never, ever felt so comfortable around a guy. I can not see this person for years and still I will feel that comfortable around him as always. I'm not sure if what I'm describing is even making sense but everything just fits, you know? Like you are just you, then one day when this person comes along, you became a puzzle piece and you found the other part that fits exactly right to you. That's what I felt. 

It's a pity I don't have much fate with this person, I guess. Our fate is only enough to allow us to know each other but not be with each other. Oh gosh, do I sound cheesy or anything that sort?! But anyways, I have had a short period of happiness and it was nice while it lasted. I'm hoping that one day, I will meet another puzzle piece that fits almost as good as the 'right' one. I hope. 

It's 5AM and no, I didn't took 3 whole hours to write this. I fell asleep halfway and woke up again to continue writing this. Now I'm tired and I'm reaching my grandmother's place soon. 

Goodnight.