02:05

I have been busy.

I decided to write again today because I just told a friend how some times I actually wished I wrote down all of my thoughts into this space and then I thought to myself, why not I write down what I have been feeling recently since I'm on my laptop (which isn't a common sight now) tonight? My thought runs wild at night and it is always the time I write usually as well.

So recently, I became nice. Don't get me the wrong way, though. I'm not mean in the past, at least not that mean, I hope. I have been a lousy person in the past and I am ashamed of that, but that is not the main reason why I became nice. I'm not sure if anyone took noticed or anything but I haven't been feeling exactly the best over the month and it is not because of my breakup because I'm feeling completely fine with it so people, STOP ASKING. Only the closest and the people I trust the most knows of why I haven't felt the best.

I went through this particular shit that I wished it never happened but it was a choice I made it myself so naturally I will need to bear the consequences of my own actions. It took me pretty much some time to finally see clear of the whole picture. And I was completely broken. That shit made me changed I guess, that's why I became nicer to people. Do I make any sense, yet? I wouldn't say that I am completely nice to everyone else around me because I'm not. There are days whereby I woke up on the wrong side of bed and certain things and people still do get on my nerves very much but I'll still try my very best to just smile or hold back in.

Feelings are contagious. That is why I became nice. When you're happy and positive, the people around you will feel the same as well. I'm not happy in the night, but I try to be happy in the day as much as I can, even if it meant putting on a damn mask.

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Okay, wait, I lost my thoughts. I can't continue writing for tonight anymore...