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I know people are watching me to get into another relationship soon after I ended one. I know I did mention that I would like to take a rest when it comes to love. There is no doubt that my heart is tired of investing care, concern, love, effort and patience in another person at the moment. Be that as it may, I won't promise that I won't fall in love again. After all, I know I yearn for love. I still want to feel loved and get swept off my feet by someone. I just refuse to let myself fall because I know how exhausting it tires a person out, physically and mentally. In this period of time being alone, I want to rest and protect my heart.

Being in love and having a relationship requires so much patience and understanding that I know I haven't acquired and understood, yet. I am still immature and have so much more to learn. Picking up psychology as my major helped me to understand a little more of myself and the people around me. Talking to new people makes me grow and understand so much more of the world. I want to go out and explore, to meet new people and listen to their stories. There is so much more knowledge out there that I really want to know and absorb about, but I don't want to be tied down by a person.

If I ever fall in love again soon, I hope that I would have learnt the true meaning of understanding, trust and having patience. My life must not revolve around him but yet at the same time, he will be my strongest pillar of support and I, too, hope that he will feels the same. I have a wild temper when it comes to my loved ones and I hope my partner will keep me grounded on my feet but yet, he does it in a way that will help me to understand and grow, not in a way that makes me feel worthless of myself. I don't need a guy that thinks he knows it all, but I need someone to at least understand my standings and give me advices–good or bad. I want to grow into a better person–a friend, daughter, partner.

I have absolutely no idea when I will allow myself to fall in love again. But when it happens, I hope it will be a good last one this time round. I hope my previous partner do, too. We were supposed to end on a good note but certain circumstances turned the tables over. I was mad for a while but I guess that humans behave differently in different situations, I wouldn't blame them for taking sides. I can quite safely say that I've moved on but I'm not seeking for love. When it happens, it happens. I don't want to be desperate for it. Right now, finding myself, learning, forgiving and understanding are the few main priorities in my life.

I am happy. I am free.

And I intent to keep it this way even if I fall in love, again.