02:57

Honestly, I believe that no one ever come on here to my blog anymore. I mean, seriously, who still actually go around "blog-hopping' now? Well anyway, the main point that I came here is because I needed to rant, as always.

Fuck.

The only word that makes me feel better when I am upset and since it's a strong word, it makes me feel slightly–just slightly–better.

Recently I come to realise that it is really rare to get a good listener that will not go around telling people the stuff you rant about to them. Something happened at work that caused something unpleasant, just because I ranted to someone. Some times people need to stop exaggerating and add in stuffs that are not true at all to the real story. I honestly have no fucking idea that just a casual rant can cause such a huge issue to occur. I know very well I am at fault in some ways as well. But then again, what the fuck is wrong with me just wanting to rant?!

When I explained that I was purely just ranting because I was frustrated, I got questioned back this: "What do you get from ranting?" Okay... I know what you are trying to get at but hey, I needed a fucking release man. Maybe some people can keep it in and not say anything but I can't and I am seriously on the fucking verge of exploding with anger. It is just so fucking frustrating that I am forbidden to rant. Like fucking seriously? I find this absolutely ridiculous.

Hang on a second if you think that I am self-conceited or selfish or brainless or whatever fuck ok. I know where I went wrong. I said the wrong things to the wrong people. This whole point is just for me to rant and for people to know that some times, people just need a fucking listening ear to rant to instead of keeping it to themselves. It was my own mistake thinking that some people can be trusted, and I was not smart enough to be able to know who was trustworthy and who aren't.

I wanted to try explaining again that I honestly just needed a fucking release, but I guess some people just won't fucking get that in because their head is drilled with the thought that if you are unhappy, you must keep your mouth shut 'cause you get nothing from ranting anyway. Well, fuck you because you are wrong. Everyone is different, everyone has different opinion on everything and this is my different point of view to yours. You don't find the need to rant, I do. This is how I am made.

There, I finally found the right words to describe my feelings.

But there's no longer a point anyway. Case's closed. I just need to keep my mouth shut and ta-dah, problem solved. I can't be bothered to explain myself with them again. It will be redundant and a complete waste of my time. Everyone's got different opinion, remember?

And this is mine.