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It seems like nothing is going my way at all this week and never have I felt this helpless and lonely.

My thoughts have been running wild recently and I've been thinking about a whole chunk of things. I feel depressed almost every other day that I'm even starting to suspect I have some mild depression or something (wtf). Some days I wish I can just sleep and never wake up or maybe get into a accident and hopefully lose my memory. There's so much things right now that crushes me whenever I get reminded of it. I failed in studies, work and human relationships and everything practically linked to life. I feel like such major loser in life. So tell me, why do I even exist? 

So far this week, I've received bad news almost everyday. As if someone is trying to pull me down lower and lower each day till there's nothing left of me. I'm not strong enough to stand up anymore. I've lost myself somewhere along the way in the past few years. I feel like extreme shit. 

This post isn't even normal. What the hell is going on...