2026

It’s been such a long time since I’ve been here! I do pop by this little space once in a while when I get bored (or more of when I can’t sleep and my mind starts to wander at random stuff, lol) and get myself entertained reading at my younger self’s thoughts. It’s pretty amazing how much time has passed, and so much has changed since then. 

Somehow as I grow older I seem to have lost the interest to document down everything in my life. Which I felt that kinda sucks because I actually do enjoy reading the stuff I wrote down here. I won’t be able to remember every single stuff that happened in my life so it’s nice that I still get to get reminded on my past a little whenever I come into this space. Also, I don’t think anyone else actually still comes here to read anymore. This space feels like my private yet not-so-private little space and I like that. 

I used to be a person that loves expressing my feelings and thoughts but I haven’t been able to do that for a long time… Putting my feelings out here always makes me feel better and over the years I forgot such a space existed. But I guess that’s ok seeing how I’ve managed to silently get through the hard times throughout the years and still surviving. 

Anyways, what got me here to this space today was because I got reminded of my past that still haunts me every now and then. I guess I may never get past this…? It’s been over a decade and it still gets me at times. I really do wish I was wiser back then otherwise I wouldn’t have made such a stupid mistake that costed my relationship. As I always say, I don’t feel regretful over that relationship. I feel regretful on how it ended. It was a relationship that was never meant to last till marriage but the least I could have done was to end it on a nicer note. 

They say firsts are always the hardest. I guess that’s true… I’m still sorry for what I did. And I do hope he’s the happiest he’ll ever be now. 

Be happy, hun.