I've never found an answer when people question me on the reason on why I love diving. I still haven't found it, yet. I guess in a way, diving gives me peace and it takes away all the stress, worries and whatsoever load that I have at the moment. The only issue I had to worry about was my air intake and working on the perfect buoyancy. Diving allows me to escape for a short little while from the reality, being detached from social media, no problems and just the sun, sea, diving buddies and me.
Or maybe, diving is the key to finding my future partner (hahaha). Alright, I was joking. Although I do feel lonely at times, I still however, find that being alone is way far better than being with anyone. One bad choice is enough to screw an entire person up, just like how it did to me. Life is often too unpredictable, and some times you end up making choices or in situations that you've never expected yourself to make or be stuck in. I've never thought of the consequences that will follow after when I decided on my choice. I feel like I keep harping on this bad choice all the time and it's stopping me from going into any relationship with anyone. There are times that I feel like I'm letting it to consume me, and to label me as that kind of person. It feels like a parasite that's leeching off of me and I don't have a control over that.
I'm exhausted, as always.
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