03:52

I guess it's pretty true for me that time felt like it sped up once you've hit the 20th year of your life. Every once in a while I'll look back at my photos and realized that it's been two years since I've graduated from Republic Poly and a year since I've started studying in Murdoch. I honestly don't feel like I'm a uni student because well, I certainly don't act like one? I see all the uni students around me mugging so diligently for their exams and putting in so much effort for their assignments... And then there's me, lazing around, procrastinating as much as I can, only completing my assignments a few days before the due date and studying a day before my finals. I constantly try to remind myself that I should be thankful for the people around me and all that I've achieved so far. Not everyone gets to have what I have and I should always be thankful to be alive, breathing, eating well and have a roof over my head. 

While having all these benefits that may seem like nothing to us, it actually meant a lot to some people that aren't as lucky as we are. Which is why there are times when people rant to me constantly about how miserable their lives are because they have to work etc., I'm actually rolling my eyes in my mind at them. I get that all humans tend to rant, but there has to be a limit to it. I know that I rant too, I know that well. But at the end of the day, I always tell myself that I'm fortunate enough to be here–where I am today–and I shouldn't be complacent or take any thing around me for granted. Although I still do take some things for granted but hey, at least I know appreciation. I try to be a better person each passing day. Every single person and event that used to broke me, allowed me to learn something new about myself and the world. Positive or negative, I will learn to be thankful for them. And I hope that whoever that still comes to this space of mine, or happens to drop by here, will be thankful for all that you have with you right now. 

Random thought right there but moving on! I've recently took up diving, again, and I guess this time I'm going to continue my diving adventures. I'd say that being alone allows me to search for my hobbies, my interests and my passion for things. There's so damn much that I want to do and achieve and I really do plan to make them happen in time to come when I have more stability. There's absolutely no doubt that I wished that there is someone that will do all these together with me, but I guess there isn't anyone that seems to share the same hobbies, interest and passion as I do, yet. It's been lonely (hahahahahahaha) for me, so much so that I seemed to have forgot how love felt like. There are days that I felt that I couldn't love anymore and commitment seems like something I could never achieve, and I hope that those are just part of me overthinking. 

I like my life the way it is now, although there are so many times I knocked out from exhaustion from school and work at the end of the day, or having to spend a whole day at home just trying to recharge my body. But I get to have my freedom in life, in the things that I do. I know I've said it before but I can't help but to always repeat this, that I would hope that my future partner doesn't change any of this that I'm enjoying, and that he would understand how I would like to lead my life the way I want it to. That is if he exist, though.