2016

There it goes, 2015.

It has been a great year and like everyone else, I'll pen down my thoughts about my 2015 as well. I guess everyone pretty much will experience new stuff everyday as long as they are alive, and writing it down at the end of the year is quite a mandatory thing– to go through the list of what they've went through and to make their new year a better one.

In 2015, the most major event that happened for me is probably going back to school. Truth to be told, I only decided to go back to school in order to avoid the real world of stepping into the working life. Working full-time is an issue I know that I'm not ready for at the moment. I felt that it was too much for me to handle and I'd still like to enjoy as much as possible right now. My youth shouldn't be utilised on work but on the better things in life, isn't it? To date, I've been through two trimesters of school and I'm only finally starting to get the hang of juggling both school and work together. The first trimester of school made me so flustered about my work but I'm still extremely thankful that things fell into place eventually. However, in my second trimester of school, I felt that I got too complacent with my studies that I left everything till the very last minute and I'm still regretting at this point. The results aren't released yet but I've got a bad feeling about them... But whatever happens, happens and I'm prepared to face the music.

Last year, I also ended a relationship. All that I can say about it was: I felt really good afterwards. I am happy now, and it's genuinely happy. People around me said that I look better (hahaha) and I'm not making this up! There's so much that you have to give in for a relationship to work and I guess with work and studies piling on my shoulders, I couldn't balance out well to the relationship side of my life and this includes relationship with my family and friends as well. I was getting lost in what I was doing with my life and I lost all motivation for so many things–studies, work and most importantly my faith. There wasn't anyone there to push me on. It wasn't until I started seeing some of the people around me that are actually giving in so much more to improve their lives and not taking the things around them for granted that I finally started to pick the little pieces of myself up again. Right now I'm still picking the little pieces up and trying to improve myself as the days goes by. Surely, there will be days whereby I feel like giving up (again) but eventually I'll still find ways to make things to get back on the right track. 'Cause I very much believe in ,"Slowly, surely and somehow, we'll get there." So ending the relationship pretty much gave me new insights and made me grow as a person.

Overall, it was a good year. There were tons of ups and downs in my friendships but at the end of the day, I'm thankful and glad that everything worked out well. Then, I also realised that when you get older, only a few main things in life will really matter to you: Family, friendship, career, studies and your supporting companion–maybe some beer as well.

So now that we're into another year, my only hope is to learn to have patience in everything that I do and for the people around me. My temper will get me nowhere in life if I don't learn to control it. Also, I want to have a bigger heart to the people that I don't know of on the streets. The world needs more happier and nicer people with a bigger heart, and I want to be one of them to at least influence the younger generation in the future. For my love life, I'm not pinning very high hopes in it. Just taking small steps as I go. I'm tired of having to constantly having to worry about doing the right thing or seeking permission in the stuff I do. I don't want to give anyone an explanation in anything I choose to do or go. I'd like to do what I'm doing at the moment, free with no worries. I like being myself.

Lastly, happy late 22nd birthday to myself. Thank you to the people that celebrated for me, and with me– on that day itself, or not, it doesn't matter. I'll learn to cherish and make full use of time in 2016 as I've learnt that even two minutes can make a lot of difference.

In my 23rd year, I'll like for happiness for the people around me, and myself, too, of course. 

Happy New Year everyone, x